Author: Julia

I don’t know about you but I have the deepest most profound thoughts when I have consumed THC products.

I feel like it’s mostly philosophical and maybe even some conspiracy theories. And how my spiritual beliefs have evolved to where they are now. I feel as though this is the meaning of life- the adventure of figuring out purpose and learning important lessons here with our soul families. What do they say? It’s not the destination but the journey.

I also feel as though within our world there are “clues” if you may. Maybe coincidences that you could never explain or when you compare our lungs with trees. It’s all connected. It’s so beautiful to be able to experience this life with so many different senses and feelings. I am grateful (most of the time) to be able to feel these things so deeply.

This life does feel very small compared to the infinite space you can feel out…there. It’s wild to feel everything and nothing at all sometimes.

Do you ever find yourself getting annoyed at the things YOU do?? I annoy myself more throughout the day than I would like to admit. The more I read about astrology and learn about the traits of a Taurus, the more ahh ha moments I have.

The most recent is when I realized how completely indecisive I can be. I didn’t grow up in a wealthy household. I remember lots of fights about money or how we didn’t have any. My dad counting out change to buy a gallon of milk. Luckily, I’m not in the same boat now but I think some of the habits I have developed have stemmed from that era. A daily task can turn into a 4 hour long-overthinking spree. Basically, I always feel I need to see EVERY option before I commit.

Recently, I decided that I need to purge some clothes. Once again- *Taurus* We tend to like material things a bit more than other zodiac signs. My idea was to put every piece of clothing on the living room to sort. Basically, I wanted to make sure I wasn’t going to get rid of something I might “need”. And then the overthinking took over. So what was going to take an hour or two still hasn’t been done because I need to know all the articles of clothing I’m keeping has to be the best option in my wardrobe. It sounds insane. But here we are. I guess in some weird way, I have to know that whatever I’m doing- is the BEST option. The best value. The best choice. It’s exhausting most days. I have scrolled through endless online shopping apps to pick the best of the best. It’s annoying. And I definitely would love to change this about myself but not sure that will happen. Nature vs Nurture maybe. I just know I love my material things and I’m holding on tight.

Maybe today will be that day I pull out everything and make the best decisions. I don’t know. What can I say? I like options.

I have so many thoughts that tend to swirl around in my brain. Thousands of tabs open all at once, screaming out to me. For now I will pull out the thoughts on top.

Do you send someone music because you just like it or you think the receiver will like it? Or maybe you relate to the lyrics and want to share them. I don’t know, but isn’t it one of the most beautiful things to be able to share your feelings through a song? Or even maybe just a couple of lines that resonate with you.

Music is so universal. I don’t think I have ever met someone that said they didn’t like music. I suppose I am not sure what I would think if someone did actually say that. Music has been a guiding light for me for some time. Think of all the people it can bring together with as little as three minutes of a catchy bridge and a heartfelt melody. It can even provoke memories from times long gone in the past. Powerful.

What a wonderful gift we have in music. It is part of us. Lyrics wrapped in our soul. I shall turn my headphones back up and shut the world out. -j